This thought just popped in my head. lol

I am sorry; I have to share this. I don't know why this story entered my head, but I am going to share this. So, I remember an ex boyfriend I was dealing wit; and let me just put this out there, it was the worse relationship I ever had. I can't even try to cover it up. It was the worse. Anywho, I remember he got upset for something. I'm sure it was a petty reason, something. I remember him stating something along the lines of; yeah you're skinny who is going to want you. I just looked at him and started to laugh. He was dead serious attempting to hand me that diss. Ha, a supposedly diss. Let me tell you; if I wasn't secure in my body, in my thoughts and in my life, that comment could have gotten to me. It may have gave me a little bruise. No, not a bruise maybe a little irritation on the surface. But continuing on, I laughed and looked at him and said, "everyone wants me including yourself. That's why you're here. Who wants your big, black and ugly self?!" I know that was wrong to say but come on; I needed him to looked shocked. He started going on but honestly it's a blur. I just shut him down with a raggedy comment and that fool was lost for words. My point is, it's funny how a person that supposedly love you, that claims to love you, gives out negative comments to bring you down. Since their self-esteem is low they want someone else to share that pain. They want someone else to hurt. That is crazy to me. How I interpret that kind of behavior is that, that person never really loved me. Love does not hurt. I refuse to give anyone that power to ever influence me to look down at myself. Never!! A person that claims to love me will never think about attempting to bring me down. People who love you will never think to bring you down with their words or action. Think about it. It took me a long time, over twenty years to be comfortable and content in my own skin. People will only do what you allow them to do.